An anatomical chart of love

"This depiction of the internal organs of the human body is taken from an advertisement for Paradison, a painkiller on display in the window of every pharmacy in Istanbul at the time, and i use it here to illustrate to the museum visitor where the agony of love first appeared, where it became most pronounced, and how far it spread. Let me explain to readers without access to our museum that the deepest pain was initially felt in the upper left-hand quadrant of my stomach. As the pain increased, it would, as the overlay indicates, radiate to the cavity between my lungs and my stomach. At that point its abdominal presence would no longer be confined to the left side, having spread to the right, felling rather as if a hot poker or a screwdriver were twisting into me. As the pain grew more pervasive and intense, i would feel it climb into my forehead, over the back of my neck, my shoulders, my entire body, even invading my dreams to take a smothering hold of me. Sometimes, as diagrammed, a star of pain would form, centered on my navel, shooting shafts of acid to my throat, and my mouth, and i feared it would throttle me. If i hit the wall with my hand, or did a few calisthenics, or otherwise pushed myself as an athlete does, i could briefly block the pain, but as its most muted i could still feel it like an intravenous drip entering my bloodstream, and it was always there in my stomach; that was its epicenter.

Despite all its tangible manifestations, i knew that the pain emanated from my mind, from my soul, but even so i could not bring myself to cleanse my mind and deliver myself from it. Inexperienced in such feeling, i was, like a proud young officer ambushed in his first command, forced into a mental rout."

Orham Pamuk

The Museum of Innocence